Questions

How do you find comfort in something you can't see or touch?

 I have seen things and I have felt God.


To you, what does it mean to serve God?
  
To serve God, right now, is to seek Him always. I look for Him in everything I do. I think about Him and I read His Word. He has asked me to read the Bible. So serving God means I've surrendered my life, let Him in my heart and learn as much as I can about who God is.


If there is a God, how are you supposed to know what he wants from you or how to serve him best?

   I don't even know what He wants me to do with my life yet. He has been very clear that my job as His servant is to love Him with all my heart and love people as I love myself. He has asked me to share my testimony so that others may learn to find Him and know Him too. Love people; be there for them. When no one else wants them because of how bad of a person they are or how lost they are; love them. Love them so they can see God. So they can see what God has done for me. How He has changed me and how He has fulfilled my life. You serve Him when you realize that there is no other way but Him. You have tried everything in this life to feel like you have meaning and purpose and always come up empty handed and full of sorrow. Then you realize that God is the only answer. When you realize God is the only answer, you are challenged to believe that your way of living is wrong. You are full of sadness because what you have been doing has no meaning and you're sorry. But God says, "I love you and I have a purpose for you. If you chose me, I will never leave you. I will never forsake you. I have a plan for you; a plan for good. A plan to proposer you and not to harm you. I love you despite your rebelling against me and to find meaning in everything but me. I will always keep asking you to come back to me. Even if you deny me a thousand times, I will never give up on you."


When you're dealing with different issues in your life, do you ask God to help you through them or just ask for the wisdom to make it through on your own?

 I ask for God to help through everything. I ask for God to give me wisdom...His wisdom through it, and He does.

  Ecclesiastes 2:26: To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

   James 1:5: If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

   This is what I'm new at because I haven't followed God before. I just believed Him to be real. So I've been learning what it means to follow Him and how He talks to me. He's been teaching me how to live in certain circumstances.


Is it enough to serve God by just being a good person?

   I assume by being a good person you mean doing good deeds. But the cross, or following God, demands that you trust in Him and surrender your life to Him. It is not by doing good things that you are saved or is required for following God. Of course being a "good person" comes from following God but that comes with surrendering your life. Entrusting your life in God's hands.

   So many times in the bible it says it is by faith (Trust in God) that counts. Because if you don't have faith being a "good person" doesn't mean anything. You can do "good things" and still be someone who doesn't believe in God. By definition of following Christ we are a new creation and are therefore different from everyone else. Because we as people are naturally flawed, there is no amount of good deed or being a good person that is "good enough for God". And the amazing thing is we don't have to be "good enough for God".

   Ephesians 2:8-9: For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the faith of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

   James 2:26: For as the body apart from the spirit is dead, so also faith apart from works is dead. 

   2 Corinthians 5:17: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

   Galatians 2:20: I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

   Romans 3:23-26:  For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement through the shedding of his blood to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished  he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.


Do you regret any of it? The whole experience of finding God?

  This is one of those things that is very hard to explain until you get to a point where you surrender yourself to Him because you want Him in your life. Choosing to follow God is not like choosing what college you want to go to or what career path you want to take or even who you want to marry. Choosing God is choosing a way of life and a way of death. You are choosing, in this life to follow THE God. To live out the plan he has for your life. Which is always good. Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you," declared the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." He has a plan for your life providing you choose it. His plan is good for you and it glorifies Him.

   You also made a choice of what happens when you die. You choose a life of eternity with God. John 11:25 Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live..." John 5:24: "Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life. He does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life." The fact is: You will die one day. What do you believe happens? You just die and that's it? What if you don't just die. This life is about choosing. You either choose God or you don't; there is no middle ground. If you die and find out there's life after death... It's a little too late.

So, do I regret choosing to follow a God that loves me,

"I knew you before you were conceived" -Jeremiah 1:4-5-. "I chose you when I planned creation" -Ephesians 1:11-12-. "You were not a mistake... for all your days are written in my book" -Psalm 138:15-16-. "I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live" -Acts 17:26-. "You are fearfully and wonderfully made" - Psalms 139:14-. A God who wants to do good to me? "It is my desire to lavish my love on you, simply because you are my child and I am your Father" -1 John 3:1-. "I offer you more than your earthly father ever could" -Matthew 7:11-. "Every good gift you receive comes from my hand" -James 1:17-. "For I am your provider and I meet all of your needs" -Matthew 6:31-33- . Who promises to be there for me when I'm hurting? "When you are broken hearted I am close to you" -Psalm 34:18-. "One day I will wipe away every tear from your eye and I will take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth" -Revelations 21:3-4-. Who sacrifices for love? "I am your father and I love you even as I love my son Jesus" -John 17:23-. "He is the exact representation of my being" -Hebrews 1:3-. "He came to demonstrate that I am for you and not against you" -Romans 8:31-. "And to tell you I am not counting your sins. Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled" -2 Corinthians 5:18-19-. "His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you" -1 John 4:10-. "I gave up everything I love that I might gain your love" -Romans 8:32-.

No, I don't regret that.


What if you don't feel anything anymore? How can someone love you when you don't even love yourself?

  You are able to love in the first place because God loves you. God is love.    

1 John 4:19:  "We love because he first loved us."
1John 4:16: "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."

I know what it's like to not love yourself. Now that I am where I am in my life, I know God loves me and that's enough. I've haven't had to worry about someone else loving me or even me loving myself. I know that doesn't make sense but that's how I see it.


It seems like in order to accept God into your life, you have to love him. But how can you do that when you really don't even remember what it's like to love anyone let alone yourself. How are you supposed to learn to love anything when you just feel hollow?

   He loved you first. So that implies that you don't love first. You don't have to love Him first. You just have to accept Him. Let Him show you He loves you. In order to do that, you have to acknowledge Him. You are hollow because you haven't accepted Him. You will always be hollow until you realize He is that only things that can fill the void in your heart. It's hard to love yourself when you don't have love. God is love -1 John 4:8-. You don't love yourself because you don't know God. But He knows you. That is the whole point. Do you believe God to be real? That is where you start.


It is hard to wrap my mind around the possibility of an all powerful being that is everywhere at the same time. Something that is capable of unconditional love.

  We aren't supposed to be able to wrap our heads around it. You'll be in a life long pursuit of trying to understand if you think following God means you'll understand everything He understands. That's like looking at your Dad when you're three and saying "You're not my Dad unless I understand everything about who you are. You know your Dad is your Dad when you're a kid by believing he is.


If God wants us to believe in him, why not make his presence more known and remove all doubt?

   Would you want a God who forces you to believe in Him? Forces you into surrendering to who He is? The greatest gift from God is our free will. He's not going to spell it out for you because it all comes down to choice. You have to want God. Even with all the experiences I have had, He still leaves me with a choice and I'll be honest, all the proof in the world could point to the existence of a God, and people would still choose not to serve Him. He has shown me so many things in the spiritual world, yet I still had to make a choice. It is said in the bible, not sure the reference, even demons acknowledge God is real. When you want God, when you seek Him, He will show Himself to you. Trust me. But you have to want it. Truly want it.










Sources:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kEfJpJ1lhQc

A Fire

A burning passion.
A sense of great purpose
A peace that satisfies
A Love that consumes
A heart that is changed

Because I have recently truly devoted my life to Christ, I have experienced a change in the things I desire. But, I want to relate this to you as much as I can. I really need you to understand that coming to God is not about being changed to perfection. You do not have to be perfect to stand before God because we will never reach it. (“Come.” And let the one who is thirsty come; let the one who desires take the water of life without price.") I'm not going to pretend that I am innocent or that I am righteous, or rarely make mistakes with my life because it's far from the truth. I came to God, though I believed in him at 10, at my lowest point in my life. It took me being at my lowest before I realized I couldn't do this without Him.

I have realized that the things that I used to enjoy are becoming bitter and that when I do them, I am filled with guilt afterwards. For example, partying, carrying on conversation that has no deep meaning, planning my life for how I think it should go, or wishing for a relationship that will make me feel complete. I literally feel an ache after these things. I thank God for letting me feel that way because it shows me that He is guiding me and He cares about my life and what I do with it.

I would describe my life in this moment like a fire. My life is full of passion, I feel I have purpose, I have peace, and I feel loved. These are things that I have never experienced before now. They are things that I sought after, they are things that I desired, but they are things I could NOT find anywhere. You will search for eternity for these things if you do not look in the right place. First, I want to show you what my thought process was like before letting God in. I was lost, I was searching, I was negative towards myself, and then I fell into the lowest of lows. Here are some of those entries:

October 15, 2003

Wherever we move I feel like I'm a plague affecting everyone around me... I couldn't believe that I got myself into all that mess. I was so mad at myself that day.

June 2006

I'm trying to find the importance of life, but there is so much to life. Maybe I'm not working at it hard enough.

May 16, 2008

I'm not doing well in school. I'm not stupid. I found myself yet again talking to God. It seems I have only been talking to Him when I am upset. I asked myself, and Him, over and over again why "this" matters. Why does any of it matter?

May 25, 2008

I NEED to know someone cares... I need to know that someone will be there for me, to love me...

February 7, 2010

I always look back and wonder who am I going to be after all of this?

April 28, 2013

Lord, I am weak. My heart is broken. I'm trying to trust you. Lord please give me strength so I can keep my eyes and heart on you. This is like an addiction to me. I keep relapsing.

May 2013

I am stuck in a pit and the only way I'm getting out is if you save me, because no one else can. You're the only one who can save me. I'm empty.

Aug 2013

God, I am so sorry. I am so sorry for everything. I am so sorry I have sought after everything but you, please take this, what would you have me do?


This is where the entry 'Beloved' comes in. :) So, please take a moment to read that!

God has changed my heart. My heart burns with a passion for Him. Does this passion mean that suddenly I will be great in what I do? Absolutely not, this passion allows me to want what God wants. I want to glorify God, not for myself, but because He is good. If that means that I lose everything I have, if that means that I die alone, lose my job, lose my home, then so be it. I have selfishly wanted things... I've wanted power, I've wanted comfort, I've wanted success, and I realized that I wanted them purely for myself. My passion for God is renewed when I remember that my life can have no great purpose by itself, but that God gives me that purpose. This fire has brought me a sense of peace that whatever happens, as long as I am continuously seeking Him in all that I do, down to taking a drink of water, my life has meaning, my life has a purpose, and my life is filled with Love.

I started describing this change before I started looking in scripture and here is what I found:

Luke 3:16

I baptize with water those who repent of their sins and turn to God. But someone is coming soon who is greater than I am - so much greater that I'm not worthy even to be his slave and carry his sandals. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire.

Acts 2: 1-4

On the day of Pentecost all the believers were meeting together in one place. Suddenly there was a sound from heaven like the roaring of a mighty windstorm, and It filled the house where they were sitting. Then what looked like flames or tongues of fire appeared and settled on each of them. And everyone present was filled with the Holy Spirit...

Hebrews 13: 29

For our God is a consuming fire.

2 Corinthians 3:15-

Yes, even today when they read Moses' writings, their hearts are covered with that veil, and they do not understand. But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord - who is the Spirit - makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.



There is a process to feeling this fire. First, I had to get to a point in my life where I was constantly empty and bitter. That no matter what I did, I felt an ache in my heart. Then I had to realize how bad of a person I actually was. I know that sounds awful, but it's the truth. I had done things that I knew were just wrong. I had to realize that I couldn't do "this" anymore, and "this" being life. I was tired of searching for something that I couldn't find through any means! I finally said, "Ok, God... please take my life. If you're real and you can do what you say you can, take this! Take all my pain, take all my mistakes because I'm done!" After I did that... I felt the fire. I hope and pray you find it because it is the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. I want you to know that there is an answer, and if you let it, it can consume you and change you forever.



                                                                  Ezekiel 36: 25-27

  I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you.  And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules.

Prince Charming

Ladies, this one is for you.

    I'm going to get straight to the point on this one: Men. We all want our Prince Charming. I'm sure most of us have been in a relationship where we thought "He is THE ONE!" Only for it to come crumbling down months later to an ice cream, Pride and Prejudice movie and an "I didn't need him anyway!" kind of end. Is anyone relating? 

   Well, I'm going to approach this subject in the way I have experienced it. I will start with the bottom line first: A man will not make you happy. The day you make a man the center of your life is the day you set yourself up for disappointment. Not because of men but because a man cannot and should not fill God's place. 

   A man will not fix that hole you have; that emptiness you have where you think chocolates, dates, flowers, and gifts will make your problems go away. You just want to be wanted right? Let me stop and say those things can be part of a relationship, but if you're empty to start with, those things will not fill it. It is unrealistic and unfair to put that expectation on one person. You are already WANTED! More than you could ever know! You have to understand that, so you can understand your worth, and so you don't settle for less than you deserve. You my dear, are a treasure. 

   I want to take a moment and address women who have been or are in an abusive relationship, physically and or verbally, or are just not being treated right. You are NOT stuck, you are NOT trapped, you are NOT weak, it is NOT your fault, you have NO obligations to him, and you are NOT alone! Ladies, I don't care what you have said or what you have done, you do not deserve to be treated any less than the jewel you ARE. You may need healing, you may need to work on yourself, but you do NOT deserve to be mistreated. 

   God saved me. He didn't save me from a bad relationship, he saved me from myself. It was time for me to look in the mirror and ask myself, "What am I doing?" to what ends of destroying myself will I go in order to feel wanted? When ultimately, the one thing that can bring wholeness to your life is God. The one who wants you and loves you more than anyone else ever could... is God.

   You want to be whole? You want to be loved? Seek God with all your heart. He knows what you want. Seek Him in everything and he will provide for you. Here are some things that I have said to myself that were lies, and the Bible says otherwise.

 

"I will be alone."

 No, never will I leave you, never will I forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)

 

"I cannot be loved."

 No, for God so loved the world, He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

 

"I have to do this all by myself."

  No, fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

 

"It's God's plan for me to be unhappy."

   No, for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

 

"God looks at me in disgrace."

 No, I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters… (2 Corinthians 6:18)

 For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Thessalonians 5:9)

 

"I am not good enough."

  No, you are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)

 

"God has forgotten about me."

  No, he has more precious thoughts for you than all the grains in the sands in the world. (Psalm 139: 17-18)

 

"God made a mistake."

   No, He knew you before the Earth began (Ephesians 1:4)

 

"This is too hard for you."

  No, for you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you! (Philippians 4:13)

 

Beloved

I invite you to do something tonight; If you're someone who doesn't believe in God, just take a few minutes to really sit by yourself and ask, "God, I want to know if you're real." The way that I look at it is you have absolutely nothing to lose. If there isn't a God, then there isn't. But, if there is... I'm here to tell you, there are wonders that you have yet to even scratch the surface on.

I hope I don't push you away from reading because I talk about God, but I can't stop talking about it... it has completely changed my life. My past was so wrecked, consumed with so much conflict and the only thing that saved me was God. I have no idea where I would be right now if I hadn't had my encounter with God at ten. (If you haven't read my first blog, please stop and read 'Testimony').

If you're like me, and have a past that when you think on it, breaks your heart and leaves a hole, there is only one thing that I have ever experienced that fills it.

I have told you some experiences from my past but I want to bring you to my present for this blog. Because of my past, I have had some holes that needed filling. Let me tell you, even up to now, I have tried to fill that hole with everything but God.  They all have left me empty and with the bitter taste of guilt. I still question if my life will ever feel complete.

Just last night, I recalled an event from my recent past where I had become a person that I couldn't recognize, a person that hated herself, a person that hated the life she was in, and could not think of one good thing in it. After recalling that moment a rush of deep guilt and shame came over me for even thinking that way. I was completely selfish in thinking that my life was all about me and how I couldn't see one good thing that I had. I let the negative consume me. I did things that I regret, said things that I wish I could take back, and was a victim to events that would scar me. I literally cried and said, "Jesus, I am so sorry. I am so sorry that I thought the life you gave me was worthless and I'm so sorry I have gone to everything but you... Jesus, I need you". Immediately after saying this out loud, my Pandora played this song... a song I never heard before:

Beloved:

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need

Give me your life
The lust and the lies
And the past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved 

Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'm the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Come running home to me

You're my beloved 

Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us it bind you to me

You've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers that won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips and you'll taste new life

If you have been in a place where you are heartbroken and feel regret and guilt then you understand how wonderful it would be to hear these words.

Even if you're not convinced, or feel my words are cheesy, and sometime they are! I apologize! But I have been so broken. I have been so low. I have been so ashamed. The ONLY thing that helps, the ONLY thing that gives me peace is this. I want YOU to have this too. I want you to experience love so powerful it literally makes you fall to your knees and cry. If you have been as broken as I have, I'm here to tell you that this     love      is      real.

All you have to do is truly open your heart and ask, and God will show you Himself in a way that you can understand.

And Also Darkness

There is light and also darkness.

In my last blog, I described my first encounter. I knew what it was almost immediately after seeing it... an angel. I don't think I was allowed to see all of it, just enough to know it was there. It was all white, it had a human like shape and when it "spoke" to me, it wasn't through it's mouth or audible in any way, it was in my heart. A few days after my experience, I drew a picture of it and saved it somewhere... I'm sad to say I don't know where it is.

Now that I have shared with you my first experience, I hope that you can be open to all that I will share with you because they are truly things that I have witnessed.

I said that you were a part of something greater. That your life has a destiny or a purpose for good, providing you choose it.  I also said that your life is about a battle of good and evil where love always conquers all. Seeing an angel was my proof of life beyond us and that God is very real. My next experience was far different from the last. This explanation will be very brief because my experience with this was very brief. It is not the last experience, but I will be sharing them in chronological order.

This part of my life, I would describe as a precursor to an explosion. It was about to be the beginning of a lot of conflict; my brother and I could sense it. Have you ever walked into a room and just felt the tension? That is how I would describe life at this point.

Shortly after my experience, closer to when my parents were to be divorced, I was sleeping in my parents bed. It was just me and my Mom. I remember I was scared because even though the room was dark, it "felt" dark. I remember thinking, "Maybe this is the angel again?" but I knew it wasn't. I knew that something about the "atmosphere" was off, and I kept looking around to try to figure it out.  I remember fixating on a spot on the ceiling in the room where is was especially dark. It was in the right hand corner of the room above the door leading out of the bedroom. I tried to wake my Mom to tell her that I was scared and something was in the room with us, "a man on the ceiling", but she just told me "It's OK, it's here to protect you." and then I knew that she was not seeing or feeling what I was.

Nothing ever came of the being, to me anyway. It didn't communicate with me and I'm not sure if it knew I could see it. But he was there and he was watching, and I first felt the negativity before I saw anything. I don't remember what ended up happening but I must have been able to get to a point where I could fall asleep.

This "negative" experience is the first of many that I have had. There is one thing that I want to make very clear before I continue sharing them... I have seen more bad "things" than I have good. The only "good thing" that I have seen was the angel at ten years old. However, the one good experience far outweighs any dark thing that has ever presented itself. It's not to say that those experiences weren't serious or weren't influential, but the good has always outweighed any of the bad.

I will share these stories the way I experienced them and eventually will get to a point where I tell you conclusions I have come to regarding them. But right now I will just give you facts so that maybe you can begin to make conclusions for your own life.

Testimony

I am not a writer. I just have a story.

 If you are feeling empty, lonely, unfulfilled, or like there must be something more, I am here to tell you there is. We, and by we I mean as individuals and human beings, are a part of something so much bigger than we could ever imagine. Every fictional story of adventure, of heroes and of good and evil cannot even compare to the story that we are a part of. The problem is we are deceived beyond belief. We have been deceived into believing our lives are nothing more than a start to finish of meaningless tasks and checklists to complete before we die. Or that our lives couldn’t possibly mean something unless we ourselves make it something. This story is even for those who believe but who have lost sight of the reality. If you have even the smallest amount of curiosity or want to believe that maybe your life has true meaning, then be open to what I am about to tell you...

I will tell you as to why I know this shortly, but first just imagine for a second that your life has a destiny or a purpose. Your life is in a constant battle of good and evil. There are beings that exist that most of us know nothing about. Your life is about love and how love will always conquer all. As a teen, I got lost in stories like Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars and asked myself, "Why can't our lives be that epic?" But it IS that epic! Our story is profound! And YOU as an individual have a part! It's all about the choice of what part you choose to play in this glorious story.

 I first got a taste of this story when I was ten. I would like to say that is when my part in this story started. Unbeknown to me, my parents were about to be divorced. This would lead to alcohol and drug abuse, years of pain and fear for loved ones lives. Before this though, at ten years old I wanted to know if God was real.

I had written a letter to Santa Clause once, without telling my parents, asking if he was real and if he was really able to see all the good and bad things I did. He never responded to my letter. I decided one night that I would do the same for God. I wanted to know if someone out there was looking after me, loving me or something out there to hope for. Was there really something bigger? The note read:

 Dear God,

 

Are you real? Do you love me? If so, please write back.

 Love,

Coree

 

I put the note at the end of my bed with a pencil.

 The next morning I woke up for school and immediately checked the note. There was nothing there… I even checked to see if the paper or pencil had been moved at all, and I remember thinking, "Great, God is just like Santa, he's not real." So I continued to get ready for school and then hopped in my Dad's truck. I realized I forgot my book-bag and thought maybe I left it in my room. So I went back inside and ran to my room only to find that my book-bag wasn't there. As I turned to leave my room, I saw something out of the corner of my eye. I stopped and turned to look and there was someone in all white standing over my note at the end of my bed… it was reading my letter.

Now let me stop to tell you that this is the most memorable moment of my life. I can remember every detail of that room and that moment. It was sunny, the quilt on my bed was pink and white, the bed was made, and my note was on a yellow piece of paper with an old fashioned lead two pencil next to it. The book-bag I had been looking for was green with my purple initials stitched on the front. I have no doubt in my mind that this happened to me. Though, there are also other forces that tried to ruin that memory for me, and I will go into that later...

 I gasped, and as I did, the being looked up at me and in that moment I got my answer... "Yes, God is real, He loves you and everything is going to be all right." It looked at me for another 10-12 seconds and slowly backed into my wall and disappeared...

 

This is just the start to my story and my experiences. So for just a moment consider the idea that you are a part of something greater. I will continue to write and share my stories... and hope that you really begin to question your part in this life.